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What
does it mean to be a lesbian today?
Lesbianism and the connection of heart, mind, body, and
soul
Being lesbian can mean many things, but basically it’s
this: women who love, cherish, and have primary relationships
with other women. Now I don’t mean we are like innocent
friends who have back-rubbin’ slumber parties, although
many lesbian relationships start out this way, including
my first one when I was sixteen. This mirrored love is not
a choice but a true way of living which comes from deep
within us. This is why I term it “a connection of the
body, heart, mind, and soul.” Some argue that it’s
environmental, some say biological, and some say it is the
soul’s choice. I think that it is a combination of
all these things, and that we’re predestined to be
exactly how we are. I totally believe that I was born this
way.
I remember standing in a playpen and being incredibly attracted
to Marilyn on “The Munsters” when I was still
in training pants. Shows how old I am, right? And some of
you may even be thinking “Who is Marilyn and what’s
“The Munsters”?” If you don’t know,
it just means I was born in the ’60s, and believe me,
I’m real happy with how old I am now, because I would
never want to go back. I’ve lived through some crazy
stuff and learned enough hard lessons to be able to write
it all down, in true hopes that you’ll be able to learn
a few things that will help you on your path.
All those years ago my soul was first attracted to a nice-looking
woman on an old black-and-white console TV, and my heart
followed right along. My orientation has never changed,
but my mind didn’t put a label on it. “Me, queer?
No way. I just admire my female friends because I don’t
have a big sister,” I’d say whenever that little
question of my sexuality popped into my mind. Sure, I dated
guys for a while when I was in my early teens, though I
never felt anything for them but friendship. It wasn’t
until I fell totally and unmistakably in love with my first
girlfriend that I really understood myself, and the heart,
mind, soul, body connection. My heart was racing, my soul
was soaring, my body would become incredibly aroused whenever
she touched me, and I sure couldn’t stop thinking about
her. When I figured out what all those signs meant, it was
the happiest day of my life. But that is not always the
case when women realize they are lesbian.
HOW
TO BE A HAPPY LESBIAN, A COMING OUT GUIDE
©2005 by Amazing Dreams Publishing. All rights reserved.
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